September 27th
Yes, I am knitting...
The scarf/shawl in hemp is still enthralling me. Then I noticed that about 6 inches down I had made a mistake!!! In lace!!! A zig zag row of uppy eyelet increases and downy decreases was going zig zag zig zag zig zag 1/2zig zag 1/2zag zig zag zig zag zig. The stitch count is perfect and the return rows don't show up mistakes immediately - especially if you don't really look at what you are knitting at the time... I decided not to frog.
Toria off to Manchester University
We took Toria DD up to Manchester uni last Sunday. Her halls of residence seem fine and there are some very lovely young people living there. Manchester is Big City, aggressive all the way through. The students are told to stick together and never, ever, ever, ever go anywhere on their own after dusk, never walk home at night even in groups and to invest seriously in taxis, which are thankfully cheap. Her first week there taught her the wisdom of these admonitions as she witnessed two cars being broken into beneath her window, 2 girls had their bags / purses stolen and another was evacuated from Sainsburys with the other customers when a man wielding a machete started to threaten people.
Having said that, she is having a good time, lots of fun, and is already working hard (first week!!!) and it promises to be a fantastic place to be at university. The uni itself is superb and there are art galleries, museums, libraries, excellent sports facilities and 100 culturally interesting and diverse things to do. And, of course, 100 good friends to be made. It's a little weird, our baby having flown the nest, even knowing that she will be back in the vac. However, the feeling of being on our own in the house when the boys are out is totally delicious, despite the fact that we miss her terribly.
September 20th
More kit and doggie pics
Jacquie, human mum of Noni and her kits, has sent me some more picis. The saluki is Leone and Noni the Siamese and her kits obviously get on very well with her :)
September 10th
I've been busy with space
...clearing out the kitchen and rearranging things. I have some theories
regarding clear and used space, rooted in observations I have made over the
last couple or three or four and a bit decades.
Space tells one masses about the people who inhabit it. Here are some
things I have noticed.
Firstly, there is the 'feeling' of space, when one moves into it. This
ranges from current feeling to ancient, historical feeling. I perceive this
as something like a vibrational field left in a building or in a particular
piece of landscape from the people or animals who have inhabited it,
imprinting it with their characteristics and the signature of their
activities. The feeling is not necessarily kinaesthetic, but is sensed with
glimpses and shivers and tingles in the ears.
Secondly, the way people arrange their space day by day is interesting. I
can discern significant details about my own state of being by the way I
arange my own space, and by what I require from it. My children, my
husband, gf, very close friends all deliberately intervene in the way they
maintain their space when they want to change something in their outlook,
mood, or the way their life is going. They don't necessarily do this
consciously or deliberately, they just find themselves needing to clear out
/ tidy up / get this place look lived in / nest / dedicate a space for a
new activity / 'own' their space. We tend to regard 'environment' as the
least fundamental focus of our attention (this from NLP), but I disagree. I
think it reflects the state of one of our deepest needs, underlying all our
activity on this earth, namely our connection with the earth.
It's all about grounding. I'll explain what I mean. Grounding is the
activity we undertake to connect with the earth, the planet, the ground we
live on, our home. There is nothing airy fairy about this. Au contraire:
the most unreliable, flaky people I have known, sweet souls as they all
are, are the least grounded. They live in their heads rather in reality,
they run after fantasies, but don't pursue their dreams, they talk pie in
the sky, but have no vision. They bewilder others and they don't know
themselves.
When we are grounded, we can devlop and nurture both roots and wings (what
is parenting about - right?) and we can know ourselves. Being grounded is
what people sometimes refer to as being 'centred', having a point of
stability and connection with this rock, on which our physical lives are
played out, and around which we can build visions that will manifest in
reality. The better I know my points of reference on this earth, the
further I can fly with my dreams and visions, the more I can accomplish
which is truly transformational for myself and those I touch.
Back to space. Our choice of immediate environment has a lot to do with our groundedness. If we are grounded, we are in touch with the space we live in, we have a sense of what works for us and what doesn't, and we are drawn to places which have pleasing vibrational energy - and have been sites where people or animals have connected with the earth before us. Some people’s homes are like that, whether they are new or old, in an ‘upmarket’ area or on a council estate. The people there know themselves and connect with each other and the ground they live on. Some spiritual sites are like that too, sometimes also sites of ancient woodland, sometimes churches or other sites of worship.
But have you ever been to someone's house, someone who could have chosen to live just about anywhere, and wonder why on earth they lived there? I recently spent some time in a house in quite a pretty place but with lines of enormous electricity pylons marching past within a few hundred yards. The house itself was quite large, but totally lacking in character. Totally. It seemed at first as if it could be quite nice, but there was nothing there. It was 'vacant'. The site was vacant. It was as if it was made of plastic, artificial space; even wandering out into the garden it was difficult to connect with the earth there. I don’t know whether that had anything to do with the pylons or whether they were just coincidental.
Then, there are the strangest places, maybe little shops or offices in
otherwise ugly areas, crowded or run-down, which teem with energy and life.
And the people who live and work there have vision and buzz, character and
love for others, for their work, are usually passionate about something,
from the inside out. And one wonders why these places are attractive, even
if they smell.
I maintain it is because the character and passion of the people
(ingredient number one) has melded with the ground and the walls and the
landscape they inhabit (ingredient number two) and the two energies have
mixed to become an unstoppable force.
Now to my point - yes, I do have one! I think there have to be both
ingredients present and active for a people's (or just one person's)
passion to develop and for vision to manifest. Being in a sacred place does
nothing if I don't know who I am, at least to some extent, at the core of
my being. I could do nothing with the place's energy, except hope for a
miracle (which is not a bad place for starting to know myself). And knowing
myself is impossible without being grounded. Grounding is the activity
which connects us with the energy of a landscape, a dwelling, a place of
work, and activates it in our lives.
At the same time grounding makes me aware of my own energy, my core,
my beingness. I connect with the earth and the earth's purpose, and maybe
with the purpose of all those who have gone before me in that place. There
is nothing better.
Some people ground naturally. My DH, being a landscape artist, is
unconsciously (usually) totally grounded, in touch with the landscape he is
resting on, by virtue of the fact that he focuses on it, sensing the
energy, reflecting it in oils and watercolours.
I had some 'odd' experiences when I was much younger, where I was naturally
grounded, then later on I had to deconstruct what had happened to teach
myself how to 'do' it again, after various life passages had squeezed the
natural inclination, or 'homing instinct' out of me.
Back to the kitchen. Our house dates from about 1430, an old Hall House.
Our kitchen was the centre, the beams were those the lord and lady of the
manor rested against when dining. The moment we first stepped inside this
house, we sensed it was a centre for generation upon generation of families
and communities, their politics, wars and skirmishes, victories, defeats,
prayer, scraping a living and feasting, wealth and famine, and above all,
total dependency on the land, the ground. I can feel it now, as I type. The
land is the leveller. She sees through centuries and millenia, sees cycles
of life and death, always pulsating with the rhythm of nature and of life.
The sense of this is very strong here. There has hardly been a person who
has visited us over the last twenty years, who has not remarked in some way
on what a lovely 'place' it is - and they are sensing the energy of the
land and the ground.
This was the reason we fell in love with the house. The story of how we
managed to buy it is long and convoluted and full of synchronicities (the
house was snapped up immediately, the first day it went on the market, the
day we viewed it along with 14 other possible buyers, by someone else in
possession of a bridging loan, but the vendor's horse managed to bite their
surveyor and the mortgage inspector declared the house was 'unfit for
mortgage purposes because the doors aren't square and the floors aren't
even', and the vendor liked us, so it came back to us just as we managed to
sell both our properties against all expectations). We feel extremely
privileged to live here and to be part of and take from and contribute to
the energies already present.
Er, the kitchen. Well, what happened was that the energy in our kitchen was
getting a little 'bunged up', what with five adults living here and each
one passionately active in their own chosen field, and what with such a
strong energy field from the house and the land itself, and us all being
thoroughly tuned in to these kind of things, I decided to clear out. So I
rearranged cupboards and work tops, threw out a few items we no longer use,
and generally arranged it so that the combined energy flows of people and
site are harmonizing well.
A grounding exercise
One of my favourites: imagine a point a couple of inches below your navel,
from which you have beams of energy shining out. Any colour, any
consistency, visible, invisible, does not matter. Imagine some of these
rays reaching down into the earth, far, far into the earth, straight down,
towards the very centre. On they go, further and further. soon they
approach the centre of the earth, which is very hot, but the rays don't
mind, because they are energy, too. The rays now come to the very epicentre
of the earth, and finding the hottest spot in the centre, they wrap
themselves around this spot. Several times. Now try pulling a little on the
rays, to tighten the wrap. Wrap a bit more, and pull a little. When the
rays coming from the point two inches below your navel and reaching all the
way to the middle of the earth are wrapped securely around the very centre
of the earth, begin to become aware of your breathing. Breathing in,
breathing out. As you breathe out, imagine drawing up energy from the very
centre of the earth, up through the lines of energy connecting the centre
with the point two inches below your navel, as if they were conduits for
earth energy. As the energy comes into your body, as it will, it can stay
there, if you need it, or like the idea, or it can flow through your body
and out again, through the pores, out as you next breathe out (drawing in
and breathing out at the same time). Voilà.
Sometimes I just place a bare foot or two on the floor, breathe in light,
energy, whatever you want to call it, through the top of my head (there's a
chakra up there, somewhere, but let's not get too technical), and when I
breathe out, draw in earth energy up through my feet into my body. If the
light energy comes down far enough and the earth energy comes up far
enough, somewhere in the middle, those two energies meet and mingle.
September 4th
Peace and Goodwool!
This wonderful greeting from Jess at Scarf-o-matic - and a
sweet little button - badge. thank you Jess!
What is Katrina revealing?
We are looking on in amazement. Sheer amazement. Katrina has blown away the
carpet to reveal everything that's ever been swept under it: poverty,
violence, administration priorities. Even hardened brit correspondents are
baffled by the ease in which these cans of worms have been breached.
Blessings to those who are suffering. Could this mark the beginning of a turn-around
for, er, "civilisation"?
Back at work
And it's brilliant! I love this stuff, and two or three weeks' break has
done me no end of good. I've finished the newsletter and the leaflets, and
they are about to wing their way to their various destinations.
Knitting news
The hemp scarf advances!

I'm off to the Ali Pali on October 15th for the Knitting and
Stitching Show, and hope to find House of Hemp there
again for some more purchases. Although it has no elasticity at all, their
hemp remains a texturally incredibly appealing yarn to be running through
your fingers. And the colours are so yummy!
Strange behaviour
From time to time, I, like many others, exhibit strange behaviour. In my
case it reveals itself in small fits of domesticity, just for the joy of
it. This is not an image I have cultivated, latter being because over the
years I got thoroughly hacked off with society still encouraging women to
take on the humanoid breeder/ feeder / cleaner role in life. I admit, we
live in a very small village, whose inhabitants' horizons are limited. Those
who were particularly irritating in this respect - 'pillars of the
community' - don't patronize me any more; they are far too involved with
tut-tutting about my daring to leave the homestead for - gasp! - sometimes
several days at a time! "How will your husband cope?" (He's an
adult) "Does he mind you going away like that?" (I've never asked
him). Here's the evidence of my latest foray into strange behaviour.
Nectarine crumble pie. Yum.
Kitten picis
Phoebe and Cleo sunning themselves again. Phoebe was just about to leap at
the cord handle dangling from the digicamera...
Cleo and Phoebe have five more half-siblings
Mum - Nony - has had another litter. This time they were as scheduled, from
a beautiful caramel oriental. Two dark brown, one caramel and two very
light, like mum.
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